InsaneJournal

Current mood:

calm

Been awhile
So, as of yesterday, I've decided to call the end of my alias. I'm just gonna wrap up my other internet self and without a bye. The words of Anthony on Saturday night (or early Sunday morning, however you look at it), stung. So I'm not going to deal with that anymore. I realized that in 7th to begining of tenth grade, I didn't really have my own social circle until I found a website that I adored for five years. This month on 26th, I will have been there for five years and it's been a great trip.

But it's time for me to move on, and I will be sad for awhile because there's too much baggage. I'm sure they will be trying to contact me, via my cell, mailing address, etc. That's how close we have gotten, that circle of friends. I'm sure I'll go back one day to see how they're doing and perhaps take the summer trips as I planned.

That's going to be the most difficult, because I really want to go to the conventions where my friends are. So I don't really know, perhaps I can just go anyway and let them recognize me if they see me. Otherwise, I'll just go and have fun, and watch them from a distance. I'm not sure why I'm thinking like this, why I want to cut them all off. I guess it's like I said, too much baggage.

Are all social circles like that? In the wandering years of my life, 7th to 10th grade, I had friends, but they weren't lasting ones. Lasted for perhaps a year or two, but that was it. I'm still friends with the ones in elementary as our friendship are pretty bonded. Of course, we haven't talked in years, or months as some of them may be. I guess it will be like that with the circle of friends I'm in now.

But from this day forward, I will cease to be a part of that circle, I may still have some contact, but it will be minimal. A lot of my habits have been changed to so that I can talk to them often online, and its disrupted my sleep, my studies, and everything between.

So, that's that.

This thursday or later today, I will take care of my communities I have, as I have been lacking in that for almost a month now.