InsaneJournal

Current mood:

weird

In the clear
This feels like I'm on a drama show where everything got resolved in one day.

So much has happened. For awhile, I thought my mom was getting a divorce because my step dad and mom had a big fight last monday. Then last friday, the kid's father that I was caring for, suddenly came home, thus leaving me unsure of whether or not I could work much longer as a live-in babysitter.

Finally, I sent the letter to Anthony yesterday, saying that I want to break up. And that I might disappear if there's a bad reaction.

Mom went to Tampa with Case (step dad) last night to resolve their differences. Then when I came home, mom said that the father of the kids is going back to Chicago tonight. Which implies that I'll be working for awhile yet. (and internetless). Lastly, I got a reply from Anthony, saying that he had expected it for awhile, ever since AnimeIowa was then he knew for certain. I'm not sure what gave that away... Then again, he's incredibly sharp about things. And he doesn't want me to disappear. Saying that he wants me to stick around because too many people from my other alias love me.

... I'm so incredibly selfish about wanting to disappear from so many people that love me. I honestly don't know what to do with this alias anymore. Do I stick with it? I think I will, though, I'll fess up about this alias to my friends and lock the older entries. Or maybe not, I'll have to read my older entries to see if it's not too harsh for my friends to read.

Seriously... what do you guys think? I don't think I'll deal with LJ anymore and just have a friend on LJ create a feed for this IJ so my friends can continue reading my entries....